i do

I DO

Above all expectations towards love, the ultimate hope is to live together forever, under the holy bond of nikah.

Yeah, even me having a traumatic experience on this matter do long for it.

Proposes come knocking on my door, waiting for me to say yes. My gosh, its hard to break their heart but i really don’t fond of the idea of being with them. pushing them away is all i do. I got to have the guts to reject them. i have to.

Theres one person i would truly loved to be united with, my dear azha. But then, i guess he’s the last person to want to marry me. even if he do talk about it, its in a joking manner. Well, we’re studying. How can i actually put this matter to consideration? I guess the proposes i get do get in my head. I keep it a secret thou. From mom especially. Afraid she’d actually consider to accept one of em. Haha.

I wish i can get married asap, so i don’t have to answer to any other men’s feelings. Its easier that way. But it cant be a reason to get married. I wish it can. Hm..

Well then, fate is in God’s hand. Pray for the best.

My God, please let me be with him. Please let him be my perfect half.

(7/5/2011)