[all the things u said]

(all the things u said) too.

Having to love someone in life can be a bless, or a mess.

Tears and laughter come at a time, and no ones to blame,

But only yourself for falling so easily. Easy huh? Is it?

Above all the options u have, turning to one person to actually put faith on him,

Hoping him to be the one. Is a  risk im taking.

Its not easy. The thoughts and expectations that comes in mind can be confusing,

building up fogs of disappointments, breaking the wall of trust and hope.

Giving my all isn’t a plan.

But giving in is all I can. It makes me not an inch better. But it makes me feel better.

I guess that’s ok.

Loving and missing that someone can be rather excruciating, especially when u are actually wondering whether he’s feeling the same or not, feeling that everything’s in vain is not at all pleasing.

So I guess being obviously craving for attention and love is not a sin here.

Makes him feel better, probably. Killing me silently, i guess. At least it kills my love for sure.

Oh no. I hope not.

Dear love, please hold on.

Please don’t, don’t make me wait? Its agonizing.

Please, don’t let me stray. Its irresponsible.

Please, don’t hurt me. its painful.

Please, show yourself. I beg of u.

Hm.. to think of such thoughts,does it proves that im selfish..? or it only shows my self-consciousness? Hey, aren’t they the same?

Dear love, please remember.

Everything got its price. Don’t let it overprice u and sweep all u got.

Everything got a limit. Don’t let urself push the last trigger to doom.

Everything got its time. Don’t let it flow till time’s up.

So do i.im someone, am i? I must have my own price, limit and time.

So do u. U mean a lot to me. how can i abandon u.

How can i not fall. Deeper. And deeper.

Xpe kot.

(7/5/2011)