fear

i cant stand watching love stories with bitter-sweet endings. i mean. what happened to plain, beutiful happy endings?
i hate it because i easily absorb them.
the classic; sad ending for the mom.the daughter..i cant remember but i cried like hell.
the notebook; they almost had a sad ending.they had quite some hard time parted but united in the end.then the lady went senile and forgets everything.
a moment to remember;again, amnesia? wth? y must the man suffer?? the girl can hardly remember to even feel pain. but she is clueless.i guess that would be very painfull. losing your memory is the same as loosing ur soul.
atonement; damn.the movie even made a twist by showing a happy ending, then telling it was fake.n then tells the sad ending it actually has.chett.
and others that i cant actually rmember the details.
but then i find myself feeling restless of the happiness i have.
and afraid, terrified of the sad ending that i think will fall upon us.
i wish and pray for a happy ending.
but i cant stop this feeling that my happiness is at stake, at risk and will be burnt to ashes.
ok. melampau.
but then, seeing my parent restlessly fight all day long makes me scared and fear of what will i become if we made it till we're old.
hm..
oh. i hope. i really hope we'll be together. AND HAPPY. please.