lovelesspainful.

lonely. longing.
this is too much that im starting to feel that its unhealthy.
i find myself putting too much hope on him.
wishing hard he would do as i wish he would, to ease this longing feeling.
i wish so hard, but it stays a wish.
as they say, the higher it is, the harder it falls.
in  a way, i find myself in that position.
more to it, i keep on hoping and wishing over and over again.
the frustration, my,my. sometimes i feel like i can hardly cope with it.
and i know, im pushing it too far.
cant help it.
call me, i wanna say. text me. i wanna beg.
but wheres the sense if i demand for it to make it happen.
so i keep on wishing quietly.
damn. i wish ur not reading this post.
please,dont get me wrong.