serious

am i taken seriously. coz i feel im not.
am i influenced by the play a doll's house?
im being sceptical, yes.
why am i feeling this?
WHY?
your words just proves it all.
yes, it still plays in my mind. over, and over again.
and its painful when im in vain and in love.
yes, not a second pass without missing you,
and it comes with a shot of pain, each and single one.
.
am i taken seriously?
why aren't you there when i need you.
I feel like a speck, a little teeny weeny speck,
why cant you at least be there when im in need of you?
im being selfish, yes. im feeling scornful.
why, cant i?
i feel like running away, yet i would be running on thorns.
help me.
.
i love you but i feel disdained at the same time.
tell im wrong.
and i would try to believe.
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