its hard.

its hard to be apart,
its hard when i miss you so much yet my conscious mind take control,
i thought i'll be okay then, but the heart feels the pain.on and on and on and on.
its hard not to tell that i love you,
when the feelings overflowing so, and i did slip it out, just to make sure u know,
and not to let the love spill away and wasted,
its hard. when u can hardly say i love you too.

yes, i knew it would be hard on you too, yet never i knew it would make u hate me.
the thing i fear the most from all of this.

how can i, whom love you, truly love you, endure this hardship if this is the outcome?
syg, i love u.
hate me, but i wont blame u my dear.
leave me not.

maybe im too much. am i asking too much..i dont know. :( ... my dear,please,if u know better, tell me.
sakit.