agony

its agony. agony: Extreme physical or mental suffering, mentally emotionally suffering.
my, my, this is unhealthy. yet its true.
suffering. a word might be exaggerated.


waiting without knowing; reminds me of the many 'breakups' we had. making me think of 1001 possibilities of what might happen. keeping me hoping non stop, without a single decrease, if it is charted on a line graph.


its too much for me to handle.but i would die if it really is 'too much'.


now ur back, and yet so far,
the agony at its limit, burst out,
falling in the form of tear drops.
and now im crying, do u hear me now?
now im crying, can u please wipe these tears?
now im crying, u dont even know.


how exasperating,
missing u nonetheless.
loving u nonetheless.


end this. get a phone.