agony

its agony. agony: Extreme physical or mental suffering, mentally emotionally suffering.
my, my, this is unhealthy. yet its true.
suffering. a word might be exaggerated.


waiting without knowing; reminds me of the many 'breakups' we had. making me think of 1001 possibilities of what might happen. keeping me hoping non stop, without a single decrease, if it is charted on a line graph.


its too much for me to handle.but i would die if it really is 'too much'.


now ur back, and yet so far,
the agony at its limit, burst out,
falling in the form of tear drops.
and now im crying, do u hear me now?
now im crying, can u please wipe these tears?
now im crying, u dont even know.


how exasperating,
missing u nonetheless.
loving u nonetheless.


end this. get a phone.

calm down

think back,
calm down,
its something new, yet u feel so familiar,
it may not be so,
calm down.

far far away.

yes, you are far away,
to be exact, app. 10,841 kilometer away,
so far, and in less than 24 hours, u are gone.
the apparent presence i felt a little time ago is still lingering,
yet the obvious emptiness falls upon me,
yes, im missing you,
im missing you too much to say,
wait,
i've been in this state a few months ago,
of this,
yet its killing me now,
its distinctive than this.
damn.
guess i've fallen harder.