A DRAMA: needs and desires.

u r back from somewhere and is tired.
yet i miss you so much.
so i let my selfishness conquer me and kept you away from your sleep.
a sleep u need. but the desire to get your attention, the longing in my heart,
often at times i would smile yet it eventually turns to a grin, of evil guilt.
often at times i let my selfishness conquer me,
yet you are in your senses, i'm frustrated and i fall into deep, deep, deep frustration,
yet my selfishness turns the guilt to you inappropriately, which tells me that i am abandoned,
but its untrue. so the battle within me cause such chaotic event.
oh, the drama.
"cut!" wish someone could shout that to me before i jump into the ravine of deep grief.