ramadhan

heee~ ramadhan~!
ramadhan away from home:(
its okay. im okay!
im fine:)
oh.maybe this is a chance for me to concentrate more on doing more ibadah.
i will.i wish.:)

drama queen

to think of the drama i had in my heart, im ashamed.teehee :p
ouh. n supposedly, i can see,little by little,
why im falling for you, falling deeper n deeper.
oh. i love you so much,
that it feels like it is never enough, the three words is just not enough,
to confess my love, to show how much i love you,
my gosh.
there should be a better way to show it.
hm.. by being a  better person maybeee?
yep. thats it. to be a better person.

wait

how long can a longing heart wait?

A DRAMA: needs and desires.

u r back from somewhere and is tired.
yet i miss you so much.
so i let my selfishness conquer me and kept you away from your sleep.
a sleep u need. but the desire to get your attention, the longing in my heart,
often at times i would smile yet it eventually turns to a grin, of evil guilt.
often at times i let my selfishness conquer me,
yet you are in your senses, i'm frustrated and i fall into deep, deep, deep frustration,
yet my selfishness turns the guilt to you inappropriately, which tells me that i am abandoned,
but its untrue. so the battle within me cause such chaotic event.
oh, the drama.
"cut!" wish someone could shout that to me before i jump into the ravine of deep grief.

where

where is it?.......

as the dark clouds roll into the sky,

the drizzling rain dampen the earth,

as the tears roll down,

the drops dampens the pillow.

oh, this longing heart of mine,

is it beating the way yours beating?

is yours hurt as mine too?

is yours longing of me?

maybe.maybe, a word of uncertainty.

oh, this speechless tongue of mine,

frozen in time, of guilt and lost,

of sorrow,

and i am falling,

falling into despondent.

i need a doctor.