oh,u cute little thing~!

in the times of sorrow.
something pop on my monitor.
the cutest living person aged between 20-25y.o i've ever seen
i thought the presence of the face have the ability to make my day
but the grieve in me built up to a mountain.
horrible i am.

oh.none of u.

upon you i see none.

in me i feel none.

for words are so many i can read enough of.

worry not u said clear to me.

but never it is fair to me.

always it is take away my breath.

choking me.taking me down. 

can u not see my great grief.

.......

my heart is so full of sorrow

i will not let a drop of love to spill it

.......

i wonder how i come to thee

with absence of love or such

i may now say,

and u must not betray.

a love for thee corroded and gone,

by the acid of sin

swept away and gone,

by the sway of passion

n here i say,

i may not go near thee, 

for such thing repeating i shall not risk,

for the deep hole it took me

is not so bright.

here i say,

i havent say so recklessly 

when i say i love u no more.

i havent done so carelessly

when i walked away from u.

...

but the grief i behold had never wither,

when ur picking up the pieces,alone, and cut yourself,

and ur holding it, the broken glass, and cut yourself,

can u not see the pain u behold will never be away,

even u glued it up, 

and drink from it,u shall have the pain,

of drinking paticles of crystal,

and shall it bleed u inside out.

....

no i said.

time, u told me.

time?

how dare u say about time,

when ur not taking time to heal urself.

see the guilt i carry,

sometimes turns to annoyance of promises u utter.

chettt.banyak susah daa...

shit!i say to u! DAMN u for bringing me to this state of .....